20 POUNDS OF LOVE

I recently met a man. I was so excited. He was everything I was looking for in a man. I was so wrong. He was a lying scumbag. And so it goes, I still go to bed alone every night. One night a week or so ago, I went to bed saddened by my loneliness. I turned off the light and felt a heavy thump on my bed. Ash had come to sleep with me. I petted him and rubbed his belly. He purred. Satisfied he stretched out, fell asleep, and snored. It struck me, that if it was a man in my bed, it would be no different. After a bit of "attention", no doubt he would have hogged the bed, snored and I would be alone, wide awake, and unsatisfied. Who needs a man when you have 20lbs of cat to love? At least I don't have to pick up his socks.

Ben was not well enough to try out for the soccer team. His legs continue to ache. He has lost almost ten pounds this summer and because he had no fat to give, it was all muscle. He continues to get better and is looking forward to playing rec soccer in two weeks. He is sad that he's not playing JV with his friends. While it is still a mystery what he has, there is no doubt it is viral in nature. There is another soccer player who went through the same thing. Some of the docs I work for wonder if he had viral meningitis. I just want Ben to be healthy and happy. He turned 14 on Friday. We went back to school shopping and he got new clothes, all in the men's department.

My friend and patient, Charlene died. Sometimes I think she was an angel put on this earth just for me. I loved her and she loved me. Truthfully, everyone felt that way about her. She had so much love in her heart for everyone. She was an angel put on this earth for everyone.

Today I honored myself by going for a walk. It's a beautiful day and I felt joy in letting my body go. What did you do for yourself today?