Who Am I?

I am a Mother. I am meant to be a mother of boys. Sometimes I'm a good mother and sometimes I wish I could do it all over again. I love them to the moon and back.

I'm an athlete. I love asking something of my body and being able to do it. The feeling of moving through the water and yet having the water hold me is awesome.

I am a nurse. I give of myself and get so much more in return. It's an honor to be a nurse. My patients have shown me the way.

I am a fat girl with a jelly belly and no matter how much weight I lose, I will always hold that fat girl in my soul. I think about food 24/7. It is my addiction.

I am a lousy housekeeper and really who gives a shit. I'd rather do other things.

I'm a reader and find joy in reading books. I read one to two a week. Going to the library is one of my favorite things to do. I ask Ben if he wants to go with me just to hear him say, "Why would I want to do that?".

I am a cat owner. Ash is twenty pounds of pure love and he sleeps with me every night. Izzy is a scrawny fluffy thing and will always be part stray.

I am an insomniac. Sometimes I sleep and sometimes I don't. I'm hot, then I'm cold. Sometimes I'm restless and my mind races. My face, jaw and head hurt. Those are long nights and longer days.

I take pretty pictures and write a blog. I like to write and sometimes I think I'm good at it.

I am loving and giving. I am funny. I love to laugh and try to have joy in my world.

I am alone and have been for ten years. I answer to no one and I like it. But I miss sharing my life and being held, just because. I have love to give.

I either have my act together or I am completely fucked up.

I'm happy, I'm sad. I have joy, but I am lonely. I know who I am one day and have no clue what I'm doing the next. I have so much, but have so little.

Life is hard, life is beautiful. It's complicated.

I having a hot flash. I am Anne. Welcome to my world.