Dear Neal,
It started with a ding at 7am on Sunday December 11, 2016. My Facebook instant messe nger had gone off. I knew it was you, but I rolled over and fell back asleep. I got up at 8:30, but even then I didn't check on your message until 8:40. "C U soon" was the message you sent to me on Saturday. You sent your sister a message at 6:58am EST in a PST zone , left a message on Facebook at 6:59 and sent mine at 7am. I want to believe that you were gone by 7:01, because if I don't, I am not sure I can live knowing I might have been able to stop you . I knew it was true the second I saw it, and if I am really being honest , I wasn't completely surprised, b roken people sense when someone else is broken . Maybe that's why we felt safe with each other. I loved you anyway, broken, grumpy, lacking diplomacy, but you had the biggest heart I had...